Realization....

I am currently sitting in my BMGT443 class... studying for my 445 exam and checking people's xanga site... and i realized that i am behind in many things... school of course, internship/job searching....but many more too... i guess once you slip behind, it's very hard to catch up.... i realized that i got more stupid and more lazy... i guess once u give ur brain a rest for a year or two, it's hard to speed it up too...

I stopped making friends after 2nd year in college... why is that? many friends who i entered college now lost in touch... same school, same major, never met again... but the good thing is that they are doing well or excellent on what they are doing...unlike me... but i am happy for them.. i realized that the reason i stop hangout or keep in touch maybe because our distance and gap got deeper... they moved forward and fast, i just stay at the same place or maybe took steps back too.... why is that?

Then i realized that when i got the boy friend... i just put school behind.. i need to set my prior straight....i think everything, friend, bf, family are more important than school... i realized that i went to school because of my mom.. just to satisify her goal... i need to learn to like what i am learning and put more effort into this... hmmm... but it's always easy said then done...

Five days until cruise.....need a vocation hanging out with Dennis and Coco... after i come back... hopefully i will actually do something with my realizations....