Hmmm... Five weeks until final.. and a little more than a month left... but who's counting.. Shouldn't think too much and just let things go with the float? hehe... but i am ultra happy for Sherry... her new love, new job... everything...

I am stressed out about everything... school..people... and things... man... how come i am not losing weight because of this?

I am back..... I got back from cruise last sunday.. but this week has been the worst week ever.. i have three exams and i was sick to the point my throat was killing me... But thanks to Coco's medicine.. it got better the next day... i still can't really breath thru my noise, but i always can't do that... hehe.. so no difference...

I finally load the picture up on the web.... go check it out... I realized that 1/3 of my pictures is Dennis... why is that??? hmm....

http://photos.yahoo.com/br88bear

Can't believe it's April already... i have two more months left (or less).... hmmm.... a little sad... but we will never know what can happen in two months...

Realization....

I am currently sitting in my BMGT443 class... studying for my 445 exam and checking people's xanga site... and i realized that i am behind in many things... school of course, internship/job searching....but many more too... i guess once you slip behind, it's very hard to catch up.... i realized that i got more stupid and more lazy... i guess once u give ur brain a rest for a year or two, it's hard to speed it up too...

I stopped making friends after 2nd year in college... why is that? many friends who i entered college now lost in touch... same school, same major, never met again... but the good thing is that they are doing well or excellent on what they are doing...unlike me... but i am happy for them.. i realized that the reason i stop hangout or keep in touch maybe because our distance and gap got deeper... they moved forward and fast, i just stay at the same place or maybe took steps back too.... why is that?

Then i realized that when i got the boy friend... i just put school behind.. i need to set my prior straight....i think everything, friend, bf, family are more important than school... i realized that i went to school because of my mom.. just to satisify her goal... i need to learn to like what i am learning and put more effort into this... hmmm... but it's always easy said then done...

Five days until cruise.....need a vocation hanging out with Dennis and Coco... after i come back... hopefully i will actually do something with my realizations....

It's soooo nice outside.... and I have exams coming up.. this is really messed up...

Should I live in the present or in the future?  Should I enjoy what i have now and stop worrying what will come up next even if the ending is not going to be good? or should I starting thinking about the future and make decision base on what I think the future will be? Sometimes I care about little things too much... and sometimes I just think too much..